bought a fantastic 2012 Warhol calender back in August. could not WAIT to hang it up. It came with a free poster, and each month had a classic Warhol one-liner. welp, just found it…. 4 months later… At least I’ll get a little over half the year to make use of it. which got me thinking about a great memory of mine, getting to see his museum in Pittsburgh. which got me thinking about other things.

it’s just unbelievable to me how much can change and happen in what, 6 years? good, bad, ugly, whatever it is— you have to deal with it. i guess i have the mindset that so much has changed for me in 6 years… who’s to say what will happen these next 5 or 6 years? i graduate COLLEGE for goodness sake’s in one year. hell, i could graduate early if i really wanted to.

SO much changes. SO many things happen. I understand people a lot better now. And I really just want to help.

im so confused! is it ok ignore how you feel because someone CONSISTENTLY tells you that you shouldn’t feel that way? what ever happened to “gut” feelings? how can i trust something that has without fail has always let me down in the end? are you just supposed to believe them when they tell you to believe them? i don’t know.

today is just a really sad day for me. my friend passed away. my heart is just so heavy. it makes me feel so silly for even getting worked up about situations such as ^.